Mine

2010-10-11T15:20:00.002+08:00

Maybe.

Ice Box

2010-09-30T03:11:00.001+08:00

I don't know how to feel.

and the world unite.

2010-09-21T21:39:00.026+08:00

Hello there angels from my nightmare!

SINGAPORE YOUTH OLYMPIC GAMES 2010

LOGISTICS AND FINANCE

HQ 6 DIVISION G4 BRANCH

F1 PIT BUILDING DUTY ROOM

24 & 28 JULY, 4 8 14 & 19 AUGUST 2010

THE OPENING CEREMONY - 14 AUGUST 2010

The moment the flame cauldron is lighted up, I feel a sense of joy and satisfaction. Months of sacrifices, burnt Saturdays, staying back late is finally paid off. I'm glad to be the part of the team that showcasing Singapore to the world and makes Singapore 2010 a huge success.

SUCCESS!!!!!

NUR AMELISA

2010-05-16T23:13:00.008+08:00

Hello there angels from my nightmare.

Ladies and Gentleman, I present to you my new baby cousin and the latest addition to my paternal family,

NUR AMELISA BINTE AYUB

Yesterday was her Majlis Cukur Rambut (Hair-shaving Ceremony). Thank god everything went smoothly, the Marhabban group and guess came. It's really a good blessing for my little cousin. I would also like to take this opportunity to wish her a wonderful future, be successful in anything she pursue for in this world and afterlife, and be a filial daughter. Amin.

Please enjoy the photos and a video of the whole event. :)

Sayonara people!

This world is too heavy that I can't carry.

2010-05-14T16:05:00.005+08:00

Hello there angels from my nightmare!

This week has been much of a roller-coaster ride for me. A lot of things has been going on and I almost can't take the weight of it anymore. I kind of disappointed when things didn't go the way I've planned. But guess I just gotta live with it.

Yes, being a die-hard MANCHESTER UNITED fan, I was utterly disappointed when they fail to win the Premier League and being the first team to win the trophy back-to-back four times in a row. Instead it went to bloody Chelsea who won it with style and even break the record of scoring more than 100 goals in a season. I think its unfair because that bloody billionaire, Roman Abrahamovich bought them and increase their transfer budget to bring in more superstars to their team. But also, I think Sir Alex failed to bring in new signings since the departure of Cristiano Ronaldo and Carlos Tevez. Seriously Sir Alex need to sign new players that can fit in to the team nicely to win the title back and beat Liverpool in terms of the total number of league trophies collected. Don't depend on Rooney too much or sign disoriented players like Berbatov please. Whatever it is, I still love you MANCHESTER UNITED. GLORY GLORY MAN UNITED!!

I guessed I gotta be patience with things that happen lately. Honestly, I'm in contact with someone but now I doubt whether I still have any chances to do so. It started out from Facebook, then MSN Messenger followed by exchanging contact number. Nothing special, just a conventional way to bring friendship to greater heights. So it keeps going and going until I got carried away. Everything looks perfectly fine and I'm confident something will work out somehow. But apparently something bad happened in her life and she had a downfall, falling aimlessly to nowhere. I tried my best to console her and be by her side but she choose to be alone and reflect back her life. Yes, I do respect her decision and I didn't contact her unless in MSN, when she initiate the a chat. Even so, I tried my best to console her and be her listening ear within that small time frame given. I felt contented everytime she laugh in her chatbox and I felt my day is complete when I get to chat with her. She has been my first SMS partner too ever since I'm enlisted in National Service. So nowadays my Berry has been silent too. I'm not being mushy but just trying to let go of how I felt. It's been bottled up and I find it hard to carry on with this feeling. I hope that soon she'll be back to her normal, jovial self and we can carry on with this friendship. :)

The Middle - Jimmy Eat World

Hey, don't write yourself off yet
It's only in your head you feel left out or looked down on
Just try your best, try everything you can
And don't you worry what they tell themselves when you're away

It just takes some time
Little girl you're in the middle of the ride
Everything, everything will be just fine
Everything, everything will be alright, alright

Hey, you know they're all the same
You know you're doing better on your own, so don't buy in
Live right now, yeah, just be yourself
It doesn't matter if it's good enough for someone else

Hey, don't write yourself off yet
It's only in your head you feel left out or looked down on
Just do your best, do everything you can
And don't you worry what the bitter hearts are gonna say

Later on will be a long day for me because I gotta go to my Aunt's place for 'hair-shaving ceremony' (majlis cukur rambut) on her newborn baby and latest addition to my paternal side. And at night I'm going to meet my bike team members. Gonna take and upload more pictures tomorrow. If not my blog will be too wordy and boring!

Sayonara people!

2010-05-13T23:39:00.003+08:00

PHYSICALLY, EMOTIONALLY AND MENTALLY DRENCHED.

2010-05-09T04:01:00.003+08:00

Hello there angel from my nightmare!

Alas I've done, or at least almost done editing my blogspace. But there's still room for improvement and I'm cracking my brains to make this space looks attractive and cool. I'm open to any suggestion, even the minor ones.

So Saturday have passed by real fast. All I did was to get some hair and retail therapy. And honestly I tell you, I've OVERSPEND!! Looks like I'm eating sand and sky juice for the month of May. Dammit!

Went for a proper a haircut at Jean Yip Saloon with Zann. I mean all this while I've been trimming my hair at my camp's barber shop and my hair looks like it had been trimmed by land mower. Well, what can I say. The barber charged me $4.50 per haircut. You pay peanuts, you'll get monkeys. But this time round at Jean Yip I paid about $46.50. It's like 10 times the amount that the barber charged me. But the haircut turns out to be just fine. Short and simple. :)

It looks a bit like this hairstyle, but a shorter version and less messy. How I wish I can cut exactly like this hairstyle. :/

We proceed to Orchard and met Dane at ION. Before that, I bought two simple tees for $32 from VOLTA. This time round I felt a dent on my wallet. Walked around ION and after that Zann went to meet his family at Raffles City. To fill up the void while waiting for last bus, I decided to meet my camp mates at Clarke Quay.

So I met with Ariff CherishiCyanide and Shazwan Sunny there. Make new friends with their friends. Infact I learn to skate with them and I lost control of the board like everytime. I'm a noob at skating. LOL.

Almost 1140PM and I decide to make my move before I miss the last bus. Thank God I managed to reach the Central bus stop before the last bus reach. So here I am now, at home updating my blog content. See you guys again tomorrow!

Sayonara!!

2010-05-08T14:11:00.004+08:00

Hello there angels from my nightmare.

I guess I demote myself into 'once in a blue moon updates' category. But my life have been so mundane until recently. I'm sure you readers don't wanna read the same monotonous life of mine. Okay I'll summarize my daily routine here:

Monday, Wednesday, Friday:

0615HRS: Rise and Shine

0655HRS: Get lost from house

0708HRS: Board service 927

0730HRS: Book-in camp

0740HRS: Healthy Life Run (Exercise)

1000HRS: Start work

1730HRS: End work (1700HRS for Fridays)

Tuesday and Thursday

0630HRS: Rise and Shine

0710HRS: Kicked out from house

0725HRS: Board service 927

0750HRS: Book-in camp

0800HRS: Start work

1730HRS: End work

After work is already my semi-civilian life. But usually I go home straight coz Im too tired to hang around. The schedule above is a rough gauge on my daily timings but usually its just ad-hoc mode for me, like my end of work timing its not fixed. If there's still work to do, then have to stay till very late. Same goes for my start of work timings. If there's work that need to be done early in the morning, then usually I just stay-in camp, so that I don't need to wake up early and rush to camp.

Yesterday was quite a happening day for me. Started my day at noon and we went for Friday prayers with my dad, but unfortunately people already sujud when we reached the Mosque. I accidentally wore an E33 Cider T-shirt (alcohol beverage) to go pray. I'm really a sinner I guess. LOL. Went back home and I catch some sleep before we went out for Mothers Day dinner at Seoul Garden Marina Square.

Last week had been a wonderful week for me. Firstly I only work 3 days coz Monday was Labour Day off-in-lieu and yesterday I applied for leave. Secondly, I get to know someone who is many times better than many girls outside. She's very modest, down to earth kind of girl and I never see much vanity from her. Our first meeting was kind of impromptu as we didn't plan to meet each other. Both of us was going north so we decided to meet up for riding companion back home since its almost an hour to midnight. And I realised that her crib is at the north-eastern tip of Admiralty. LOL!

Later on, I'm still contemplating to go ECP to meet Dane and his RP friends because I'm going JP

with Zann first. And from Boon Lay to East Coast, I think I can get foot rot for travelling that far. Plus I don't have beachwear right now, unless wearing jeans and boots is not insane in the eyes of public. LOL.

As of now, I'm heading towards to Orchard to get a new shirt for work. Sometime it gets bored to wear the same old shirt over and over again. LOL.

Sayonara!!

2010

2010-02-05T10:56:00.002+08:00

Hello there angels from my nightmare!

This is the first time I'm blogging in the year 2010. I know it's kinda late but I've got no time to blog. Alternatively, you can follow me at Twitter > http://www.twitter.com/wanbarthez. I'm hoping that someone will create an application for mobile blogging for my berry. Please!

2010

I hope it will be one of the best years in my life. Notably, I'm spending one full year in the army and after which, I'll be left with five months before joining back the civilian life. And this year I'm part of the Youth Olympic Games opening and closing ceremony logistic support. Means a lot of weekends is burned and schedule will be very pack. Goodbye my social life!

I also planned to take a part-time course this October, at the new ITE College West, which is a stones throw away from my house. But I still haven't decide the course I want to apply. Still got a long way though.

Take care!!

Birthday Dilemma

2009-11-02T18:51:00.002+08:00

Hello there angels from my nightmare!

It's been a while since I last updated my blog. Just look at the date of my previous post. It's on 29th June 2009. My god, those were the BMT days.Haha! Now, after more than four months, I'm back to update my beloved blog.

In less than a month time will be my birthday. I don't know how to celebrate my two decades of living in this world. The word 'where' is the main question. Unfortunately my birthday falls on Tuesday so I can't celebrate in the club or organising barbeques like the past years. Furthermore my pay day is far from that day and confirm, guarantee plus chop I'll be under tight budget. Other factor is I'm currently serving my NS so I can't be as free as I used to be. I'm considering celebrating my birthday with my dear friends Diniy and Hafizan, whose birthdays falls on the 9th and 25th respectively. And we celebrate it on a very special day. Guess when? Of course it's ZOUKOUT!!! I've never went to that event before and I'm so looking forward to attending it.

So I'll be signing off right now and you guys help me figure out how to celebrate my birthday via my tagboard, email or facebook right. Take care guys. Sayonara!!!

Sick

2009-06-29T12:44:00.003+08:00

Hello there angels from my nightmare!

I just came back from Choa Chu Kang Polyclinic. Yeah, I was down with fever, sorethroat and running nose. Usually I would just sit at home and eat the leftover medicines. But now is the Dengue and H1N1 domination so I have to take extra precautionary measures against these viruses. Everything starts with our social responsibility, as for me I got little siblings and old nanny in the house so I've got to be vigilant enough so they won't fall sick either.

I left the house at 8.45 am without breakfast (what the hell!....), hail a cab and direct to the polyclinic. When I reach there, I declared myself having fever, sorethroat and running nose but when they check my temperature, it's 36.4C. So they give me the yellow sticker to show my severity status. (From normal to severe: Green, Yellow, Orange and Red) and they gave me a mask. So I collect my queue number for registration, registered myself and proceed to consultation area (anyway my queue number is 2223).

30 minutes have passed........

45 minutes.......

100 minutes gone and I'm still waiting........

FINALLY!!, after 135 minutes 'fly' by, my number popped out from the screen. I quickly make my way to the consultation room, with my mask covering all the lip-synching of vulgarities for making me wait more than 2 hours. After a mere 5 minutes of check-ups, I proceed to the pharmacy to collect my medication. So I submit my prescription to the pharmacist and wait for my queue turn. While waiting, I walked around the pharmacy, thinking of grabbing something (anyway, it's a pharmacy, not a souveneirs or gifts shop). Suddenly something came across my mind. Why not I buy mask just in case anything happens. So I picked the mask in box of 50's from the counter. Then something inevitable happen.

While I was paying up for the masks, got this nyonya in 40's I think, look at me with this one kind look. I know I was wearing mask but the way she look at me like she wants to tell me this:

"hey boy u got SARS ah? sorry sorry what I mean is H1N1 aka swine flu. Eeee yerrrr, so gross ah you, so dirty. Don't pass the virus to me. Shoo!"

PUKIMAK PUNYA NYONYA, KAU TAHU TAK PADAHAL KAU DAN BANGSA KAU MAKAN BABI. BABI YANG DAH LENYET-LENYET DALAM LUMPUR DAN PASAL TU LAH KENE SWINE FLU. CHIBAI PUNYA NYONYA, MUKA DAH LAH SEAKAN2AKAN MACAM BABI JUGAK. SIAL PUNYA NYONYA!!

Okay I vent my anger already in malay because I think my vulgarities is effective in malay. Haha!! After paying the stuff I bought, I proceed to the pharmacists and collect my medicine. Walked out to the main road and hail a cab back home.

And honestly I just finish swallowing 2 tabs of fever pills, 1 small tab of running nose pill, 2 spoon of cough mixture and right now I'm still sucking my sorethroat lozenges. My eyes is as heavy as if it's carrying weight. My god, I guess I'll better stop here and have a good rest. See you again people!

Sayonara!!

kakak nizar kahwin lah! (pictures)

2009-06-01T18:59:00.004+08:00

party like there's no tomorrow.

2009-06-01T17:57:00.007+08:00

Hello there angels from my nightmare.

It's a party-hard weekend, eventhough I want it harder. Saturday, I went out shopping with Zann, Khai, Zach and Lydiah. Started off the day going to the hairsalon as Zann and Zach wanna get a quick hairfix. Then we took the north-bound train to Yishun to pick up Lydiah and after that off to Town, where the shopping haven is. Met up with Khai at Wheelock Place. I'm sorry that he have to wait for us for almost 2 hours but it's wise of him to actually go Borders and read some books. But his dressing is way out of line. Wearing a RedBull singlet, I'm sure he's unknown of our party plans. Haha!

Our first stop, It's Agnes B. at Isetan Scotts. Zann wanted to buy his year-long wish of that $100+ t-shirt and at last he's happy to actually fulfilled his dream, Haha!

Next we went to Istean Wisma Atria to collect the t-shirt 'cos they have Zann size there. But before that we went to Forever 21 in favour of Lydiah and Breadtalk to grab some munchies. Hehe. After that, we proceed to Takashimaya, Heeren and Cineleisure. Zann bought a new shoes, a New Balance purple in colour. It's very nice, I shall loan him one day. Muahaha!

By now, our stomach pangs are uncontrollable and we decided to eat at Youth Park.
Khai, Lydiah and myself opted for Botak Jones while Zann and Zach opted for seafood. I don't know what they had but for all I know, mine is Cajun Chicken Burger with Cheese Mashed Potatoes and Cajun Fries. I almost vomit, trying to finish up my food. I tell you, Botak Jones is very cheap and the serving is humungous. Value for money, especially in hard times like now.

Okay, our party-mood is developing in our thoughts. But Zach is in flip flops while I'm in berms, who cares right. So we took cab to Clarke Quay to try our luck and only Azzucar is available for us but the environment is still dead. So we took cab again to Hacienda @ Dempsey to have a few rounds of drinks first. I grabbed two pints of Hoegaarden and 2 sets of double-shot whiskey coke. Chill out for a while and my guest for the day camed. It's Zia and her two friends. All of them are from my ITE and they are in one batch lower. Next we proceed to Azzucar and party hard.

It's really and enjoying day for all of us. I hope we can party again like this.

Sayonara people!

What the fuck

2009-05-28T19:17:00.003+08:00

Hello there angels from my nightmare.

Today was a very short day for me because I spend the whole day sleeping. Reach home late yesterday at about 5 in the morning. Watching a heart-wretching soccer match. Manchester United lost to Barcelona 2-0. Honestly, Barcelona was a better team to me. Yesterday match wasn't making me mad and angry, it was the stupid fans. The ironic thing is, those words of hatred didn't come from many Barcelona fans. Haha! What the hell.

Okay before the match, Dane treat us McDonalds again, for 3 straight days. I can't thank him any much for realising my childhood dreams of eating McDonald's. Haha! Reach home, grab a few pieces of bread, spread it with nutella and then to toilet to clear the excess. Chat with my friend, Faieka on MSN before I went to sleep.

Wake up at around noon to fetch my sister from school. Kind of tired to wake up but have to force myself up. I think my face look like zombie. And after that I reached home, went straight to bed and continue sleeping.

Later tonight I'm going to play soccer at Limbang Park. I wanna break people's leg and vent my frustration. Yeah!

And Sam just called me, saying he needs help tomorrow night to carry fridge from one house to another. I'm okay with it but before that I need to go Unity Secondary to follow my mum to my sis meet-the-parent session. What a tight schedule.

Next week I'm going Tan Tock Seng Hospital to go my medical appointment. Anyone wants to follow? Make sure you are willing to get Swine Flu. Haha!

Sayonara people!

semua tentang cinta

2009-05-26T05:07:00.003+08:00

hello there angels from my nightmare.

Okay my followers, hari ini aku nak blog in bahasa ibundaku (cheyy...) yang sangat songsang pasal dah lama aku tak buat keje macam gini. To those who don't understand my malay shit, I'm really apologetic but I can't help. Curse me if you want to but remember to fuck yourself after that. Haha!

Kanak-kanak, hari ini abang wan nk bebual topic pasal cinta. Mana tak, tadi aku kemas-kemas almari aku and terjumpa hard disk and some love letters plus pictures kat dalam pirate chest aku. So, aku nak give a bit of my opinion about love shit.

Honestly ah, kalau kau tengok muka aku, confirm kau ingat aku punya orang suka main pompan aku, buat pakai and doing many negative things on with her. But hell no!, aku tak pernah main any of my ex-GFs, cuma kalau ringan-ringan sikit tu terang-terang ada lah. Susahkan nak percaya? Itulah Ridzwan Zuhaire kalau nak kena tahu. Reasonnya senang jek, aku bukan a selfish guy. Kau step relationship boleh kekal jek unless you are built to last lah. Aku treat a relationship like a loan to me, to have support and shoulder to cry on. Of course benda yang kau pinjam mesti kena kasi balik in good condition kan. Tak semestinya sayang kena main pe. There's a lot of other ways to show love other than doing it on bed, right?

Aku possessive? In a way, yes but it's not because I wanted to. Aku worry too much and that's my weakness. aku takut sangat kena betray and tinggalkan aku. Kau tengok, pasal ni benda lah pompan betol-betol tinggalkan aku. So sekarang aku try not to be possessive. I've got to be open and not being so naive. And in my future reationship, aku akan kasi freedom more than it used to be. Gua janji beb!!

Aku sedar aku suka sangat kasi pompan muka, sampai dier teruk-teruk pijak kepala aku!
I'm not that stern and I don't know how to. Aku cuma pandai and tahu manjakan pompan. What the hell! So aku dah promise to myself, I will never let myself to be in love or fall in love until I work out on this issue.

Mungkin satu hari ex-GFs aku akan sedar yang what I do is really for their benefits. Maybe aku tersilap langkah and failed in relationships but that's all experince for me to gain. Everytime you fall, you get up and emerge stronger. Aku tak akan buruk-buruk kan kau eventhough you treat me bad. For me, forgiveness is the sweetest revenge. I'm humbled myself now and kadang-kadang aku nak tahu, where's my mistake so I can mend it and lead a proper relationship. Nevertheless, some things are better left unsaid.

To the future girl I will meet on later days, weeks, months or years, I hope you won't be so mean to leave me stranded. Dah dua kali kena macam gini, twice bitten thrice shy (ada such phrase ke?). Either kau yang stay atau aku yan tinggalkan kau. Haha! joking lar. Tapi aku belum ada rasa nak get committed with a lady for now. And to any of the girls who used to have my heart and vice versa, prove me that you're the girl I used to know. Aku tak kesah lah muka kau dah pecah kena langgar lori balak or bekas suami kau ceraikan kau talak seribu and tinggalkan kau sepuluh anak. 'Cos it's you that I used to love and the heart never lies. aku tak sezalim Raja Fir'aun tau. Hehe.

Aku rasa kau rasa aku punya pon cantiklah. Haha! I mean, aku rasa sampai di sini sajalah ceramah abang Wan ye 'cos tangan abang dah penat ni nak type. I just hope that God will be fair to me this time round. Insha'allah.

Sayonara people!

NS and iPod.

2009-04-28T02:18:00.003+08:00

Hello there angels and demons from my nightmare.

Sorry if I didnt update my blog that much. I was too busy with work and life. Sometimes I nearly forget I've got a blog. Haha!

Yeah, I'm enlisted to NS on 10th July 2009. Going into army in the GUARDS division at Bedok Camp. So I'm preparing myself for now.

Anyways, I wanna buy an iPod. Anyone got or knows about good offer? Do beep me here aite.

Sayonara people!

Job Hunting.

2009-03-17T07:11:00.004+08:00

Hello there angels and devils from my nightmare.

Job hunting, anyone? Yesterday I went job hunting with Jeffery and Iqee. And yes, we got a job at Paya Lebar in an advertising company, starting tomorrow. That fast, haha!

I can't wait to start working again. How about you?

Sayonara people.

Goyang-goyang by Tamilan Boys.

2009-02-24T15:48:00.001+08:00

Life in ITE College.

2009-02-24T15:05:00.004+08:00

Hello there angels and demons from my nightmare.

Exactly two more weeks I'll be graduating from my HNITEC in Business Studies (Administration) at ITE College West (Clementi Campus) hopefully, as my only paper is on 10th March. Gosh! I gonna miss all the moments that I grew up here. Two years is very short indeed. Let me recap whatever I could during my two years stint here.

Study.

I'm not the kind of student who prioritise my studies. However , I still think of my future and the importance of having an education. Therefore, my grades reflects the kind of student I am. Not excellent, but not bad either.
The first and second semester (year 1) I got a GPA of 2.8, which is good enough to go polytechnic. But unfotunately, I starting to lose focus during the third semester, which resulted in a lower GPA of 2.1. However, nothing is too late for me. I got this last semester to push my GPA back to he safe zone of 2.5 and above, which is not that a problem to me.

Attendance.

My attendance sucks currently. Even right now I'm at home blogging. What the hell right. But I used to come to school regularly. As long as I'm not debarred from major examinations, I'm cool with it. It's just that I'm a headache plus migraine plus tumour in the brain for all my lecturer.

Classmate.

I'm proud to say that I've got the best classmates in my whole education life. Infact it's better than my secondary school life, I think. Where can you find classmates who don't backstabbed and bitch about their own classmates? Where can you find classmates who scold vulgarities straight to your ancestors in your face but you won't feel fucked up? I found one and I think it's the only class to have mutual understanding among all. And it's class SB/08 and SL/09 which have this qualities. I love you guys and I'll remember the times we had and spent till I got amnesia when I'm old have 16 grand-children. Haha!

Love life.

Although I'm from ITE Clementi which got damn alot of sexy pretty girls, I didn't misuse my priviledge at all. Infact during my two year coursework, I only had one girlfriend which is from the same school, same course and same year with me. While the school canteen is the place to wash our eyes deep-deep, I never set my eyes far for other girls from different courses or year. All because I was lazy to do so. Even now I'm back to single because I'm built not for relationships. Haha!.

Okay. I think it's enough for the day lah. Btw do you guys know how to upload videos on our post? Do help me out alright. Thanx. =)

Sayonara people!

New Year Resolution?

2009-01-16T13:37:00.003+08:00

you can't play on a broken strings......

2009 wasn't a good lift off for me. That explains why now then I update my blog. For what the fuck I care now is I'm enjoying my life not to the fullest, but to the maximum. Here's my new year resolution.

1) NIL
2) NIL
3) NIL........

I think I have no resolution for this year.

Maybe being a junky and get high on drugs?
Maybe let my snake moans and fuck all the girls I date?

Hmm.

Happy 19th Birthday to me!!!.

2008-12-06T13:08:00.005+08:00

Hello angels and demons from my nightmare.

As I promised, I will update very soon. Apologies for keeping you waiting. Haha.

1st - 3rd December

It's happy birthday to me. Yeah!. 19th years in the making of Ridzwan Zuhaire, physically, mentally and emotionally. Really enjoyed the day because my dad actually book a 3D2N chalet for the family to commemorate my birthday. And of course, what a chalet without barbeque right?.

So it was planned to start at 1900 hrs sharp but due to the journey and bad weather, it was delayed close to an hour. My first two guest is Ms Shaikah and Ms Fatin. I owe them alot since they are the ones who help me with the peeling of corns and marinate it with butter. Next guest is Ms Sonja who actually go all around the resort just to find the pit. And that explains why she lose alot of weight. That fast huh. Nonetheless, she bought me satay, packets of instant otah and marshmellows. That's really kind of her. So all of my guest were mostly from my current ITE college, Regent and Kranji Secondary mates and so on. If I got pictures, I will post it out real soon aites.

3rd December

What a birthday without gifts? Furthermore Christmas is coming to town and lucky shoppers, stuff is all on discounts. This year I didn't get much gift because I know it's recession and the economy is bad. Well it's okay. It's the thoughts that counts.

first gift

A new Sony Ericsson W760i with two-years student plan contract. Of course the monthly bills I have to settle myself lah. Whatever it is, I miss my N73 which got sentimental value in it.

second gift

To Nur Syafiqah, thank you for gifting me a very nice black jeans from ESPRIT. You really rawk my socks. I will alter the size cause it's very long but it just suits me well. I will wear the jeans plus the top that you choose for me when we go out again. You are a great friend. Huggs.

I think that's about it. Hopefully next post will be about my working life as a bartender.

Sayonara people!.

Moving on, it's my time.

2008-11-28T11:39:00.003+08:00

Hello there angels and demons from my nightmare.

Love lockdown.

I miss the time when I have someone by me but on the same time I can't bear to lose my singlehood again for now. 19 December, it's one year singlehood for me. Happy, sad and disappointed.

I've seen everything. How can sweet turned sour. How can hot turned cold. How can love turned hate. I can't be in that position now. It's degrading to see how a soul is tortured inside.

I don't wanna be in that position. How I was kind to you, but you took advantage of it. How I was lenient to you, but you took advantage of it. That's the kind of girl you are. About one year I've been with you, it's like walking from heaven to hell. Unfortunately, I survived.

I've moved on.

Sayonara people!.

Pening lah sial!!

2008-11-25T20:41:00.004+08:00

Hello there angels and demons from my nightmare.

Akhirnya dapat jua saya menulis di lelaman blog ini. Aiyoh!. So the baku man. Haha.

Gosh!. Mintak maaf ehk kalau aku update lambat sangat. Bukan malas tapi busy lah. Mestilah, kata kerja nightlife, macam tkder life. Lagi2 aku kene juggle up ngan studies. Fuh. It's really a feat for me. Well, aku sekarang ada masalah hati lah. Ehk2, bukan sakit jantung lah, tapi soal hati you know. Korang tahu kan part2 relationship start ups ni semua aku karat sikit. Haha. Sape2 sudi nak tolong, silakan ehk.

Okay2, actually kan, aku ader fall in love ngan seorang wanita (takkan jantan siol!). Haha. But masalah nyer sekarang, aku tak tahu if dier ni suka aku tak. Yang buat rabak ehk, member bartender aku ni pon aku suspect shiok kat dier lah. Macam steady lah potong jalan but like people say, BMW or Best Man Wins. Ni part aku penat sikit lah nak gadoh2 ngan member pasal wanita. Lumrah manusia, yang terlepas mesti ada rasa tak puas hati atau kecewa. Tu part aku tak suker lah. Serious!.

Tapikan biler aku dah suker orang, susah siot nak lupakan. Ni pon aku dah get over and done with my ex. Takkan dah jatuh, bangon balik and then nak jatuh semula. Emotional degrading you know. So what can i do now?. Aku bleh go with the flow but I really like this girl and it will be a regretful waste to let the chance of my lifetime go. She's my type you know. I really want her man!. Gosh!. Help me!.

Sayonara people!. Haiz!.

Bitch about me.

2008-11-05T22:10:00.003+08:00

Hello there angels and devils from my nightmare.

Haha. At last got the chance to update my blog which I think have been infested with spiderwebs.

It have been the busiest week of my life, juggling school, work and pasttimes. Well, I'm not a robot after all. And all this comes with the lethargic outcomes.

Actually, I just came back from watching the new James Bond movie, Quantum Of Solace, with Zan. Not a bad movie coz it's missing with sexual scenes, which is synonym to every James bond movie. Guess the new James Bond is quite old and having some erectile dysfunction.

Tomorrow I've got to go to work straight after school. Friday, Saturday and Sunday I'm not spared either. And the best thing is Sunday morning I've got Futsal tournament at East Coast. I'm so gonna be tired and flat.

And to whoever that person that bitch about me, please move on and get a life. By bitching about me, I assumed that you showing me you have not move on. Let bygones be bygones. I've got no grudges against you. I'm being professional by not mentioning whoever you are. I'm utterly disappointed with you but I've got no qualms about your desire to bitch about whoever you like. But that reflects what kind of person you are. And by doing that, people will trust that I'm right and you're wrong eventhough both parties are the same. Grow up okay. =)

Sayonara people!.

Hari Raya with Team Black Coffin.

2008-10-13T00:37:00.010+08:00

Hello angels from my nightmare.

Okay. This post is a colourful one. Coz yesterday I went hari raya visits with my team. Check it out.

"Kami dari Black Coffin Racing Team (West) ingin mengucapkan
Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir Batin"

(From L to R)
Front: Eddie, Suhairi, Wan Barthez, Zan, Boy, Bob.
Back: Shahid, Juffri, Man, Azhar, Faizul, Ibrahim, Hafiz.
Not in picture: Ramai.

Wan Barthez

Posing hancur berterabor

Kan sachok sikit

Wan Ayam dah standby posing nampak

Wan Ayam*Man Toyak*Zan Modresta*Wan Barthez

Bob and his beloved 125Z

Man go dirt with baju kurung

Suhairi with his ma'am

King of the roads

The hunks of the day

Sayonara people!

Raya With ITE mates (pictures).

2008-10-12T02:23:00.004+08:00

Hello angels from my nightmare.

just as i promised....

Sayonara people!

Working during Hari Raya

2008-10-10T13:38:00.005+08:00

Hello angels from my nightmare.

Hari ini aku keje kul 4. Jadi sempat2lah aku selit masa nak blog pasal aku tahu aku dah takde time lagi. Esok kluar beraya ngan members BLACK COFFIN RACING TEAM. Lusa pulak kluar beraya ngan family side bapak aku. And monday dah start school. Sial betol ah. Macam nak cabot gitu. Haiz.

Wednesday on the way aku pegi keje, dalam train ada satu kejadian yang mengekekkan hati. Aku naik dari CCK then diri kat divider cabin. Tiba2 dari jauh aku nampak satu chinese uncle dress smartly ngan christmas hat and waving Singapore flag. Wah. Semangat patriotic betol!. Jadi aku cepat2lah aku duduk sebab muka aku ni smuer orang pelik2 nak bebual. Aku berdoa panjang semoga dier tak stop tempat aku. Selawat panjang siot aku. Alamak anjing betol ah. Skali dier stop kat depan aku and kluarkan camera. Ingatkan nak camwhore ngan aku jugak. Biase jugak kan orang hensem macam aku. Haha. Nak tahu dier buat ape?. Dier amek gambar flag ngan cabin number aku which is 1111. Aku macam nak pegi depan muka dier and cakap "kau dah bodoh ehk?." Argh, buat ape aku nak kacau tepi kain orang kalau dier tak susahkan aku.
Sampai aku turon Dover pon dier masih dalam train. Selamatlah kau sampai Pasir Ris. Syukur dier tak ikot aku sampai keje. Haha.

Semalam pulak berjalan raya dengan classmate ITE aku. Ramai giler gitu sebab class SL merge with class SM. So meriah lah jawab dier dengan gurauan senda masing2. First house kiter meet up kat umah Juriana. Aku datang lambat pasal aku overslept padahal aku yang organiser. Tapi understand understood lah, abang semalam banting tulang mencari rezeki sampai balik malam. Haha. Then kiter proceed umah Fad, Junaidah, Shikin yang kat bukit panjang, proceed to umah aku yang kat CCK, proceed to umah Fareez, Yazid kat Bukit Batok. Lepas tu pegi area Jurong West and Taman Jurong umah Irna, Shaf and Khai. Last but not least kiter pegi area Woodlands, umah Siraj and Bob. Everything ends at cose to 1 am. Nanti aku upload gambar2 ye. =)

Sayonara people!

2008-10-06T14:19:00.002+08:00

Hello angels and demons from my nightmare.

Today is my off day so I can have all the time to post an entry. But I'm lazy to blog in english. Haha. Sorry.

Hola kengkawan.

Hari ini aku tak keje pasal aku apply off. Yelah, semalam aku dah bersihkan bar aku from top to bottom, cuci bar mat smuer. Penat giler siot. Kalau tak niari aku nk keje but I surrender (hand-raised). Haha. Aku mintak schedule aku Tuesday to Friday but dapat keje Wednesday and Friday jek. Darah naik je. Tak baik sak Emy.

Okay, kengkawan mesti pelik dan hairan asal aku keje macam aku ader 4 bini dan anak satu longgok nak kene kasi makan gitu. Senang jek reason nyer. Aku nak carik duit untuk shopping. Daripada dudok kat umah goyang kaki and besarkan babat, puas hati aku cari rezeki and belajar bende baru. And aku cuba buat diri aku sibuk jadi aku tak terfikirkan pasal ex aku dan pasrah2.
Time lambat untuk aku nak pasrah lagik. Sekarang dah jadi bartender, aku dengan senang2 nyer dapat kenal2 dengan pompuan. Not locals, but minah salleh tau. Wakaka. Tak action ah tapi dah rezeki. But itu bukan motive aku ehk as a bartender.

Tapikan, tapikan, susah tau nak luper orang yang kau betol2 sayang. Yelah, dulu pernah together-gether, bersumpah setia, aku comfortable ngan kau lah itu lah, ini lah. Ni smuer aku cakap bullshit lah. Taik lembu you know. Aku dah alami nyer, percaya sangat ngan kata2 dier, dan sayang2 sangat ngan dier. Sekaranag dier dah cakap goodbye, aku pon dah macam cibai. Haha. Sesungguhnya aku nak lupakan dier sebab aku tahu tk gunalah nak pasrah2. Selalukan aku ader this feeling nak message and contact dier but aku kuatkan diri aku and say NO!. Haha. Hari raya aku minta maaf ngan mak bapak dier den bapak dier ajak datang umah ngan family aku untuk kenal-kenalan. Yelah, aku ngan anak pompuan dier dah tak bleh semuka, inikan pulak ajak datang umah. Haha. Aku belum kasi balik jam dier and jacket aku, amplifier aku smuer kat umah dier. Harap2 everything will be okay back to the way it was.

Dan aku tak pernah menyesal dengan apa pon yang aku uat buat, baik blanja dier bag etc, berkorban untuk dier sampai tido kat tangga atau tahan ngan perangai mengamok2 dier. Yang penting aku tahu yang aku layak dapat pompuan lebih baik dari dier. Cukoplah ape yang aku dah lalui. Aku nak rilek jadi single and date around. No commitments, no relationship, nothing. And kalau harga barang dapor dah naik, begitu jugak lah harga cinta aku ehk. Haha. =)

Sayonara people!

2008-10-02T15:36:00.009+08:00

Hello there angels and devils from my nightmare.

"Allahuakhbar Allahuakhbar Allahuakhbar Allahuakhbar Laillahillahu Allahuakhbar Allahuakhbar Walillahilham"

Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir Dan Batin

Sekiranya terkasar bahasa, sorry lah.
Kalau termaki, tu standard.
Kalau terbual belakang, aku tak kental macam gitu ah.
Kalau terhutang duit, malas ah nak bayar.
Kalau terhutang budi, aku suspect kau berkira.
Kalau termakan minum, dah rezeki pe.
Kalau termantat, anak tu tolong buang please.

Minal aidil wal fa'idzin
Eid Mubarak

Behind the scenes of preparation:

All my secondary school stuff.

Will be gone in sixty seconds.

Luck or taboo number?.

My aunt's wheelchair.

Rempit using my sis' bike.

And Hari Raya itself:

Zuraime's family.

Wif my beloved nenek.

Wif my beloved aunty.

And after that my family proceed to my paternal grandparents house. We spend time with my cousins and relatives. Camwhored with Kak Nadia and siblings. We leave the house at around 11pm and I was really damn shagged.

Hari raya tahun ni tklah gerek sangat pasal aku single and lonely. Boring ah ngok couple2 pakai baju samer colour, loving2 smuer. Haiz. n aku ader memories of lagu sepasang kurung biru (lagu blog aku). Nak tahu asal?. Ngok gambar bawah:

Me with my beloved ex (2007).

Tiada salam atau ucapan
Tiada pesan tanda ingatan
Suasana penuh keriangan
Ku teringat pada seseorang

Di hari yang berbahagia ini
Hatiku kosong dan sepi sekali
Betapa manis kenangi lalu
Menyambut raya bersama denganmu

Tiada bisikan lembut yang ku dengar
Hanya suara azan sayu terdengar
Masihku rasakan hangat tanganmu
Di pagi raya bersalam denganku

Tetamu datang tetamu pergi
Namun tak tiba orang ku nanti
Hanya sepasang kurung nan biru
Menjadi teman pengubat rinduku

Sayonara people!

2008-09-30T12:28:00.010+08:00

Hello angels and demons from my nightmare.

"Menurut kiraan hisab, anak bulan Syawal tiada di atas ufuk Singapura kerana terbenam lebih awal daripada matahari selama lima minit. Oleh yang demikian esok (hari ini) adalah hari pencukup bulan Ramadan 30 hari. Dan 1 Syawal 1429 Hijrah jatuh pada lusa (esok), Rabu, bersamaan 1 Oktober 2008," kata Mufti Syed Isa Semait.

"Dan menurut kiraan hisap, bapak bulan ada kat atas kepala kerana dah malam. Oleh yang demikian esok adalah hari untuk enjoy puas-puas. Dan lusa adalah hari untuk mak bapak aku sembelih aku cukop2 sebab keputusan peperiksaan ITE jatuh pada hari itu.

Ish. Takot lah daddy. Daddy dapat results pada Hari Raya ke-dua lah. Tkpe2, mari kita enjoy2 dulu.

Yay!. Esok raya. Puasa tak nak, raya nak. Wakaka. Yok yok, nyanyi lagu raya lah, lagu Ewa Ewa Hari Raya. One, two, three. Tak nak daddy nyanyi sorang2. Bluek!.

Selamat hari raya, Selamat hari raya

Di hari mulia ucapan dikirim kepada semua muslimin muslimat

Kepada ayah bonda sanak saudara
Tidak lupa kepadamu kekasih yang tercinta

Selamat hari raya, Selamat hari raya
Kupohon ampun segala dosaku Lupakan setiap rasa kemarahan
Ataupun kebencian yang tersimpan
Hari ini hari mulia, Bersihkan jiwa raga

Ewa ewa banyak chickies lawa
Aku pon sudah bergaya Hari ini hari raya
Bila tiba hari begini umat Islam bergembira
Menyambutnya di sana-sini, bermaaf-maaf bersama

Tom tam bola, kain langsir ela-ela
Nenek rambut putih, Datuk janggut merah
Emak jangan meleter, Bapak jangan marah
Jangan masuk kolong, hari ini hari raya!.

Haha. Best kan nyanyi lagu raya?. Sekarang dah hujan selebat-lebatnya. Ni mesti gara-gara aku lah. Hujan oh hujan, tolong stop eh by kul 3 sebab aku nak pegi keje nanti. Okay, nanti pegi keje ngan Zamir. Nak beli rokok lagik pakai duit tips semalam. Haha. Lepas keje pegi Geylang ngan budak2 keje. Pukul 3 pagi masih bukak ke tu bazar?. Niari confirm habis lambat pasal eve of public holiday. Haiz.

Okay. I bought myself a new:

Audio Technica Headset which cost me $55.

Wardrobe which cost $145.

And a wall hanger. (I drill myself okay).

Sayonara people!

2008-09-29T13:07:00.004+08:00

Hello angels and demons from my nightmare.

I didn't have time to post a proper entry because of my tight schedule. Everyday is a hectic day for me. Wake up at noon, clean up the house a lil' bit and off to work at 3 pm. Reach home at 3 am and the cycle goes round and round. So mundane. Haiz.

Okay, I'm currently employed at Hacienda Bar. It's somewhere at Dempsey Hill. So for me, take the train to Clementi/Dover and board 106 from there. The journey to work is about 45 mins. Yesterday was kinda busy because of the F1 GP. Furthermore the Ferrari team held their pre-event party here. Lucky the post-event party was held at Prive (same management with Hacienda). So most of the staff here have to go Prive to help out and by 9 pm it's left with Min, Emy, Y Kassem and of course me. So there's a busy and fast-paced Ferrari service going on. Haha.

Cakap pasal kerja jek bila nak game. Pejam celik, pejam celik, dah tinggal dua hari berpuasa walaupun tk puasa. Haha. Baju raya dah beli and family aku pakai warna hitam. Cukup time kalau Hari Raya panas terik, family aku lah down dulu. Kuih raya pon dah siap bikin and aku tolong mak aku macam akulah yang anak dara. Korang datang umah aku makan kuih-muih tu semua bekas tangan aku tau. Lampu kelap-kelip dah pasang sampai sikit hari aku kene current. Kejong badan aku sekejap. Anjing betol!. Habuk-habuk kat tingkap semua aku dah lap sampai terkeluar muscle2 aku. Langsir dah pasang sampai jatuh2 terpanjat sana sini.

Esok sebelum pergi kerja, aku nak kasi style ngan rambut aku, beli contact lens hijau n tengok lah ape lagi boleh belik. Haha. Pak, nak $200 bleh, please?. Bapak kan hensem, bini bapak pon lawa n cun melecun. Alamak, dah macam cerite Do-Re-Mi P. Ramlee lah pulak. Haha. Sampai disini saja entry aku.

Sayonara people!

Salam Lebaran 2007.

2008-09-26T15:08:00.002+08:00

Hello there angels and demons from my nightmare.

I'm moving on.

Enough said.

Sayonara people!.

2008-09-23T23:53:00.008+08:00

Hello there angels and demons from my nightmare.

I wonder why does the stupid china people (or shall I call them dogs) purposely contaminate the milk with melamine. In the first place what is melamine. Okay kids, melamine is an industrial chemical used in plastics, fertilisers, dyes, glue, kitchenware and other heat-resistant materials. And why does these dogs add inedible melamine into milk?. Because these dogs watered down their milk and ended up reducing the milk's protein level; and they believed that by adding melamine, it will increase back the protein level so that the authorities will not discover the protein deficiancies. By consuming melamine, it can cause kidney stones and leads to renal failure for infants.

Okay, let us think about what dairy products that made in China we've consumed all these years. Oh shit!. I've found one and I regret thinking about it.

Familiar candy?. I'm sure you've eaten it at least once in your lifetime unless you got no childhood (pathetic biatch). This white rabbit candy looks innocent, especially with that kinky white rabbit mascot. It was one of my childhood favourites until recently. I wonder how many liters of melamine I've consumed all these years.

I guessed I gonna go dialysis right now and washed away all the melamine in my kidneys.

Sayonara people!.

2008-09-22T06:36:00.001+08:00

Hello there angels and demons from my nightmare.

Can I be emo for this entry?. I don't mind if she doesn't care about this entry. At least I make my feelings clear.

I just don't understand why u hated me for nothing. I know you've move on with live but so much so I don't expect you to move on away from me like avoiding me. It seems like I did something terrible, hurtful to you but that's not the fact. I don't blame you for leaving me. Maybe my characterwise doesn't suits you but please don't only look at the negative aspects. Look at the positive side, like how much I've sacrificed for you and shaped the woman in you. I don't expect anything in return nor I do expect this kind of treatment from you. If I'm in the wrong, these hands of mine are always there to seek forgiveness from you.

Change?. I'm not a changed person. My hearts still beats and bleeds for you. I just don't know when I'm gonna move on. It's difficult and I'm just a weak guy. The reason why I didn't come to school is not because I'm lazy. I just can't face you anymore. Everytime I saw you I became very weak and vulnerable. You are my first college love and the only face that I most recognised in school. How we used to love and care for each other, now it's all gone. Maybe you concluded that I've changed because the party pictures and all shows. I need to enjoy with my friends just to put a side all the sorrows. But those enjoyment are short-lived. When it's over, it's still you that I cried and yearn for. With you around, I don't think this shit happens. I'm going through hell, honestly.

Okay, so you've moved on and I'm still coping hard to live without you. I'm not hoping anything from you except to be friends again with you, like how close we used to be after we broke up but not seriously close. Experience teach me well and I give you my word that I won't repeat those mistakes. I just wanna mend the strained friendship. I know your family well enough that I don't wanna waste this friendship away. I'll regret my whole life if I let you be another passing face because you are the only person knows me inside out, upside down. Please don't run away from me. Hari Raya coming up. Let's forgive each other. =)

2008-09-21T07:33:00.000+08:00

2008-09-19T09:31:00.000+08:00

Hey dearest,

do you remember me like I remember you?

Do you spend your life going back in your mind to that time?

Because I walk the streets alone and I hate being on my own

Everyone can see that I really fell and I'm going through hell

Thinking about you with somebody else.

Somebody wants you, somebody needs you

Somebody dreams about you every single night

Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely

Somebody hopes that one day you will see

That Somebody's Me.

Dearest,

How could we go wrong?

It was so good and now it's gone

I pray at night that our paths soon will cross and what we had isn't lost

Cause you're always right here in my thoughts.

You'll always be in my life even if I'm not in your life

because you're in my memory.

2008-09-17T15:37:00.001+08:00

Hello there angels and demons from my nightmare.

I just came back from Ardie's house and I'm farking tired plus sleepy.

Okay, yesterday night after going to money changer at Lot 1, unexpectedly I saw Zac Boyan. What the effing hell he doing alone at Lot 1. Such a loner like me. Haha. Actually planning to meet Abang Syah to pass the dinner money but it was cancelled. So we decided to chill out instead.

Yesterday was a near full squad. Those who were there : Zac Boyan, Bob, Zan, Azhari, Kamil, Man, Nizar, Linda, Dilah and myself.

First stop we went to Henderson Wave. It's a new attraction that connects all the Southern Ridges in Singapore. While on our way, we try to corner baring at South Buona Vista Road aka "GAP". Wah, although Man rides a Vespa and Nizar is his pillion, he's superb in cornering till Nizar can smell the tar smell of the road. Haha. As for me, I'm Azhari's pillion for the night and we nearly over-anticipate the cornerings and lucky we didn't end up in the ditch. Or else, Hari Raya you can visit me at NUH. Haha. At Henderson Waves, we played games and laugh all the shits out. Ardie joined us about an hour later. We chilled till about 4 plus in the morning and it's time to sahur.

Next stop, The Cheese Prata Shop at Pasir Panjang. I tell you, the prata is damn superb, especially when it goes with milk tea. And I'm effing hungry, especially at wee hours like this. Haha. Then after that, Ardie, Kamil, Linda, Dilah and me proceed back to CCK while the rest went to Mustafa Centre to shop. Crazy right. Haha.

Okay, that's all for the day. Hopefully there are more colourful life ahead of me.

Thanx Nizar and Zan for your help.

Sayonara people!.