Can I be emo for this entry?. I don't mind if she doesn't care about this entry. At least I make my feelings clear.
I just don't understand why u hated me for nothing. I know you've move on with live but so much so I don't expect you to move on away from me like avoiding me. It seems like I did something terrible, hurtful to you but that's not the fact. I don't blame you for leaving me. Maybe my characterwise doesn't suits you but please don't only look at the negative aspects. Look at the positive side, like how much I've sacrificed for you and shaped the woman in you. I don't expect anything in return nor I do expect this kind of treatment from you. If I'm in the wrong, these hands of mine are always there to seek forgiveness from you.
Change?. I'm not a changed person. My hearts still beats and bleeds for you. I just don't know when I'm gonna move on. It's difficult and I'm just a weak guy. The reason why I didn't come to school is not because I'm lazy. I just can't face you anymore. Everytime I saw you I became very weak and vulnerable. You are my first college love and the only face that I most recognised in school. How we used to love and care for each other, now it's all gone. Maybe you concluded that I've changed because the party pictures and all shows. I need to enjoy with my friends just to put a side all the sorrows. But those enjoyment are short-lived. When it's over, it's still you that I cried and yearn for. With you around, I don't think this shit happens. I'm going through hell, honestly.
Okay, so you've moved on and I'm still coping hard to live without you. I'm not hoping anything from you except to be friends again with you, like how close we used to be after we broke up but not seriously close. Experience teach me well and I give you my word that I won't repeat those mistakes. I just wanna mend the strained friendship. I know your family well enough that I don't wanna waste this friendship away. I'll regret my whole life if I let you be another passing face because you are the only person knows me inside out, upside down. Please don't run away from me. Hari Raya coming up. Let's forgive each other. =)
