Today was a very short day for me because I spend the whole day sleeping. Reach home late yesterday at about 5 in the morning. Watching a heart-wretching soccer match. Manchester United lost to Barcelona 2-0. Honestly, Barcelona was a better team to me. Yesterday match wasn't making me mad and angry, it was the stupid fans. The ironic thing is, those words of hatred didn't come from many Barcelona fans. Haha! What the hell.
Okay before the match, Dane treat us McDonalds again, for 3 straight days. I can't thank him any much for realising my childhood dreams of eating McDonald's. Haha! Reach home, grab a few pieces of bread, spread it with nutella and then to toilet to clear the excess. Chat with my friend, Faieka on MSN before I went to sleep.
Wake up at around noon to fetch my sister from school. Kind of tired to wake up but have to force myself up. I think my face look like zombie. And after that I reached home, went straight to bed and continue sleeping.
Later tonight I'm going to play soccer at Limbang Park. I wanna break people's leg and vent my frustration. Yeah!
And Sam just called me, saying he needs help tomorrow night to carry fridge from one house to another. I'm okay with it but before that I need to go Unity Secondary to follow my mum to my sis meet-the-parent session. What a tight schedule.
Next week I'm going Tan Tock Seng Hospital to go my medical appointment. Anyone wants to follow? Make sure you are willing to get Swine Flu. Haha!
Sayonara people!
7:17 PM
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
hello there angels from my nightmare.
Okay my followers, hari ini aku nak blog in bahasa ibundaku (cheyy...) yang sangat songsang pasal dah lama aku tak buat keje macam gini. To those who don't understand my malay shit, I'm really apologetic but I can't help. Curse me if you want to but remember to fuck yourself after that. Haha!
Kanak-kanak, hari ini abang wan nk bebual topic pasal cinta. Mana tak, tadi aku kemas-kemas almari aku and terjumpa hard disk and some love letters plus pictures kat dalam pirate chest aku. So, aku nak give a bit of my opinion about love shit.
Honestly ah, kalau kau tengok muka aku, confirm kau ingat aku punya orang suka main pompan aku, buat pakai and doing many negative things on with her. But hell no!, aku tak pernah main any of my ex-GFs, cuma kalau ringan-ringan sikit tu terang-terang ada lah. Susahkan nak percaya? Itulah Ridzwan Zuhaire kalau nak kena tahu. Reasonnya senang jek, aku bukan a selfish guy. Kau step relationship boleh kekal jek unless you are built to last lah. Aku treat a relationship like a loan to me, to have support and shoulder to cry on. Of course benda yang kau pinjam mesti kena kasi balik in good condition kan. Tak semestinya sayang kena main pe. There's a lot of other ways to show love other than doing it on bed, right?
Aku possessive? In a way, yes but it's not because I wanted to. Aku worry too much and that's my weakness. aku takut sangat kena betray and tinggalkan aku. Kau tengok, pasal ni benda lah pompan betol-betol tinggalkan aku. So sekarang aku try not to be possessive. I've got to be open and not being so naive. And in my future reationship, aku akan kasi freedom more than it used to be. Gua janji beb!!
Aku sedar aku suka sangat kasi pompan muka, sampai dier teruk-teruk pijak kepala aku! I'm not that stern and I don't know how to. Aku cuma pandai and tahu manjakan pompan. What the hell! So aku dah promise to myself, I will never let myself to be in love or fall in love until I work out on this issue.
Mungkin satu hari ex-GFs aku akan sedar yang what I do is really for their benefits. Maybe aku tersilap langkah and failed in relationships but that's all experince for me to gain. Everytime you fall, you get up and emerge stronger. Aku tak akan buruk-buruk kan kau eventhough you treat me bad. For me, forgiveness is the sweetest revenge. I'm humbled myself now and kadang-kadang aku nak tahu, where's my mistake so I can mend it and lead a proper relationship. Nevertheless, some things are better left unsaid.
To the future girl I will meet on later days, weeks, months or years, I hope you won't be so mean to leave me stranded. Dah dua kali kena macam gini, twice bitten thrice shy (ada such phrase ke?). Either kau yang stay atau aku yan tinggalkan kau. Haha! joking lar. Tapi aku belum ada rasa nak get committed with a lady for now. And to any of the girls who used to have my heart and vice versa, prove me that you're the girl I used to know. Aku tak kesah lah muka kau dah pecah kena langgar lori balak or bekas suami kau ceraikan kau talak seribu and tinggalkan kau sepuluh anak. 'Cos it's you that I used to love and the heart never lies. aku tak sezalim Raja Fir'aun tau. Hehe.
Aku rasa kau rasa aku punya pon cantiklah. Haha! I mean, aku rasa sampai di sini sajalah ceramah abang Wan ye 'cos tangan abang dah penat ni nak type. I just hope that God will be fair to me this time round. Insha'allah.
